Luana's Story

My life has been devastated by abortion. I have had three abortions, and I remember them as if they were only yesterday. I lay on the cold table with no anesthetic for the pain, staring at the ceiling, wishing I were someplace else. It seemed to last forever, and the pain was unbearable. No amount of anesthetic could dull the pain in my heart and mind.
The types of abortions I had were the vacuum aspirator method. I could hear — by the increased labor of the suction machine — when a part or limb of my baby was being extracted. Each time I tried to look at the jar with my babies remains they would push me back down. To this day I still hear that haunting suction sound.
Those abortions changed my life forever. When I realized I would never hold or see those three children, I became angry and depressed. I started drinking heavily, doing drugs, and attempted suicide three times.
Years later I found out that those three babies would be the only children I would ever bear. Why did that abortionist tell me my children were only a blob of tissue, and that it would be safer to abort than to carry them to full-term? These abortions destroyed my tubes and ovaries and caused me to be infertile. Everyday I live with the reality that the only children I will ever bear I killed.
Today I am still living with the effects of those abortions. A few years ago, I had a hysterectomy because of the severe damage caused from the suction procedure.
The only way I have been able to live through this nightmare is that I have come to know my Lord Jesus Christ. He has forgiven me and set me free. II Corthinthians 5:17 says: “Therefore, if any man is in Christ, he is a new creature, the old things are passed away; behold new things have come.”
There has never been a day that I don’t regret the “choices” I made to have those abortions, or think about those three children and who they would have been. Abortion didn’t solve my problems it only created more. I am still a mother it’s just that my 3 children are dead.
I want the world to know the harmful, horrible effects of abortion and how it destroys lives, so I WILL BE SILENT NO MORE.